Why r u like this

A quick 2 hour comic sketch, vent art of a sona'ception thing between my persona in her human gijinka form and my fursona in anthro form. Basically me fighting me. TwT

Lately I feel almost as if my conscious has split into two when it comes to my lifestyle. One side is the workaholic, overachiever, masochist... the human form. The other, the anthro form, is futilely telling me that I need to just... stop letting myself suffer and my health deteriorate for all the ambitions I have; skipping meals, getting no hours of sleep at all, ignoring everything that would bring comfort. >_< I keep wanting to work on art and get all the rest of my commissions done, and always make sure to get every single assignment and essay paper completed and turned in on time, even if I have to sacrifice myself for it, and I never want to go to bed until I've gotten a LOT of work done and can feel really proud of myself, even if it means making work/projects for myself. Working on art and finishing homework does make me really happy though... But in the process, I'm probably hurting myself for it.

So hence the comic. Idk why I'm like this, but my desire to overachieve keeps winning, against my other conscious's wishes lol. :'D Idk either what to do because I definitely don't want to turn in assignments late, and it'd suck more than anything to give up getting art done in the time that I want it completed. I can't win against myself or against life haha. I have way too strong a tendency to stay up a couple more hours just because, and no matter how much I sleep in on the weekends, it doesn't keep me from being a little tired all day, so I've grown quite used to ignoring my exhaustion and just continuing to work for hours on end.

Oh, plus my right hand has begun to have health issues mainly coming from using my labtop in Japan the whole time without a mouse, only the track pad, and the tendons on the back of my hand are strained and overworked. The wrist and thumb also sometimes get sore, but more concerningly so than the usual random pains for no reason.

Thankfully school work isn't being TOO terrible right now. There are a couple more essay paper assignments coming up in the near future, and I likely won't be getting sleep for those either. |D But it's not as bad as before I dropped a useless class that I didn't even need to be taking nor should have gotten into as it was a whole level above me. It assigned essay assignments every. single. day. I was actually probably mentally dying and rather depressed as well. XD Thankfully that's over.

Art & Characters (c) PriestessShizuka
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